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It is so deeply embedded into me, this scripture
"For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit" Romans 14:17 
I felt shame regarding my gifts. They "just" seem to involve food and the physical body. Hearing myself in the clay that begs the potter "why did you make me this way?" and in Moses "you know I don't speak well" . I'm a little bit like this ear.

I hear things, as I work. I haven't always, for my mind was given to my idols--knowledge, control, appearance. Through truth embedded in the body and food, He has delivered me. My gifts have meaning for more than the temporal world, although this wrong idea condemned me for years. When you feel like you have no meaning the natural response is to try to make it yourself. So that's what I did. With intensity, I pursued knowledge, control and appearance of goodness regarding food and my body. What I'm confessing to is a religious spirit which enslaved me, goodness itself being the idol.

Last fall, the Spirit confronted this slavery. Religion is a slavedriver, just like indulgence. I'd referred to my own brand of goodness as good habits, diligence or self-discipline, but what He has shown me now is that good food and a strong body are shadows of the fullness that is in Jesus Christ! Of course it has meaning. God designed it! 

Therefore, it is in the spirit of prophecy and the wisdom of God that I share this truth with you. It is not to create a new religion about food, which will only produce fear, it is not to give a law in order that your desires would gain power over you, but an awakening to a complete, integral inheritance. A feast. Where there is no law and no religion, death loses it's attractiveness; where there is no revelation, we simply go with whatever feels good. These two statements provide all the clarity you need involving food and enjoying the abundant feast that God has provided.

I no longer feel compelled to manipulate or shame people into eating as I do, because I've been delivered from a law-based relationship which would cause me to judge indulgence more harshly than religion. I also see now how Jesus purchased the link in order that we can enjoy abundant life outside of the slavery of either being mastered by our own desires or mastered by a set of rules.

Have you noticed those are the two basic directions we have gone regarding food since Eden?
Eve: saw beauty, wisdom and knowledge--and took it for herself, aside from God's gifts. That's when fear and shame entered.

There is so much knowledge in the world now, the majority of what we trust, human. Are we aware of how fragile that is? We are in the "age of information". Take note of this.

See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the elemental spiritual forces of this world rather than on Christ. For in Christ all the fullness of the Deity lives in bodily form, and in Christ you have been brought to fullness. He is the head over every power and authority. In him you were also circumcised with a circumcision not performed by human hands. Your whole self ruled by the flesh was put off when you were circumcised by Christ, Col. 2:8-11
Now you know, any earthly insight and ideas fail to impress the God of the universe--our origin.
With that said, it's my pleasure and sacrifice (offering) to break and hand out bread in the form of His wisdom, for your nourishment and freedom.

I was so entangled with human tradition and elemental spiritual forces of this world that I was fully blinded to the substance behind the shadows I chased. I wanted goodness. I wanted integrity. I wanted authenticity. I wanted satiety. I chased those things themselves, instead of their/my Source.  

Getting all of the above depends on my attention and agreement with Him as their Author, and the one way that I can have and be all of the above. At one time. Because I am yoked to Jesus Christ.

Do not muzzle an ox while it treads out the grain. Deuteronomy 25:4
He does not withhold full nourishment from me as I spend myself engaged in His Kingdom. Every single day and experience gives wisdom, contentment, pleasure--satiety for the mind, the body and the spirit because of Christ inhabiting me.
How I live in every way radically changed when I used my mind (authority) to direct my attention (worship) to the FULLNESS of God in Christ.

God is not the God of the dead, but of the living.
With my idols out and my heart totally free, I come to offer simple truth -- the wisdom of God.
Of course, its mystery and requires faith, which He provides.
Above all, you must understand that no prophecy of Scripture came about by the prophet’s own interpretation of things. For prophecy never had its origin in the human will, but prophets, though human, spoke from God as they were carried along by the Holy Spirit. 2 Peter 1:21
This is important because I lived on the dead and disintegrated crumbs of my own understanding for long enough to know it didn't offer satiety. God's wisdom has substance behind it, and that is how I know none of this originates in my own understanding. It carries His weight. Glory. My own opinions were shallow and persuasive but dead. His wisdom is FULL and alive.

Take note of what you see in the world of appetite. On the one hand, you have shameless indulgence and resulting disease. On the other, you have strict laws, and resulting disease. The fruit of both is the same--fear, shame and death.

God knew we'd get that way from the first time. And there we see where we get all of these faulty ideas about food and the appetite.

Why were we made with an appetite for wisdom, goodness and beauty? In order to be drawn to the One who fulfills. I'd like to describe the way an infant nurses from it's original home. There is complete satiety for every need--an infant doesn't need to know about the microbiome, the cognitive development, the spiritual intimacy or the nutrient density of what offers all of the above because it JUST IS. They never even see it. It is living fuel, because it is of God.

Aren't infants so much wiser than we? Jesus says yes: 
Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.”
We stumble on our knowledge. This is the very reason we have so much fear and confusion involving what nourishes us.

Who made the body? Whom is our Origin? In whose conception are we formed? Psalm 139

 So why are we so timid about believing what HE declared as good for food? Our own knowledge and abundance of opinion. The mind. What about a mind that has decided He is good?



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